Jethro and IT

So........IT is on msn again. Its because le crush, Jethro, is online now, and so begins the game of cat and mouse which is probably all in my head. So what's the big deal with Jethro? Well....
I'll start with his appearance because that's all I saw for a very long time. Shallow, I know.
I met Jethro during senior year at high school. He walked into the room and the world stopped for me. He was exactly my type. Blue green eyes, dark longish hair, shy, slight frame, and a brilliant nerd. He was Cillian Murphy with glasses (and I'm not the only one who sees the resemblance).
Neways long story short, I introduced myself, we became friends and thats all it stayed. I graduated with my lil crush and a friendship I thought I'd never see again. Fast-forward 3 years. We meet again, and this time I'm not letting go. We REALLY become friends, and I'm still completely speechlessly dazzled with his pretty-ness.

This is when the bubble burst.

As I get to know Jethro, he's no longer just a pretty boy, the Cillian Murphy for us lowly humans, or the person my tongue gets stuck around. He's a grounded, down to earth boy with a heart thats too big, moods that are super erratic, and a temper to match mine. He's unorganized, lazy, spends money on the weirdest things, and can't shut up when he gets started. He's got serious issues with picking the wrong friends and says yes when he should say no and no when he should say yes. BUT you won't find a more loyal friend, a more kinder, sweeter soul, a more reliable son, or a more dependable brother.
And so it happened. My happy life with my lil crush turned into a stupid nightmare of love. Things were good for a while. We were friends, he knew I felt more, but that was cool and I wasn't delusional.
And then things went wrong. VERY VERY HORRIBLY WRONG.

but i'll talk about that later.