Right Now

So yea I suck at poetry and shit but I need to put this in writing. I am so confused about what's going on. I mean I don't know if my crush is fading out or what. This is weird and it's never happened before. I mean it might be the whole over-exposure thing. But whatever it is a part of me is relieved and happy that I won't be crazy anymore. That I won't hate every girl he talks to, that I won't get pissed every time he sits with someone who's not me. So this is a good thing. On the other hand I'm sad. I liked what it was, whatever it was. It made me feel special. I don't know what's going on now. There's a huge weird gap between us. I want to talk to him about so many things, but how? ARGH this is so frustrating. Maybe the answer is just going with the flow. My friend's right. It is way to early to feel anything. What's it been like what? Just two weeks? So maybe this is a good thing. If things go back to all being all attentive and aware when we're around each other then that means there is something there. If that doesn't happen, then quite simply it was a total physical thing. Which honestly wouldn't have been bad, but would never have stayed that simple. So here's a deep breath, and now we take each day at a time, a step at a time, even though my wild streak is rebelling against the chilled out attitude, that's how we're going to do things. For now.